Godless

I wondered if I died, would it have its profits?

Don't know how to answer, but it means I'm having hard times. I guess I decided I'll always be a sad boy and man, and I need to know the way of handling it.

I tried and I'm trying to go on, even being such a sissy in the most important moments in this damn life.

I started questioning the existence of God. Even talking to him every single day of my life. I bet my mother doesn't respect my feelings, and neither does my sister.

My friends I can't count on them all the time, I'm pretty sure I'd be such a stupid and boring child bothering 'em all the time with my childish facts.

In love, I hate mentioning, but It wasn't meant to me. I spend some time watching porn on the net, instead. As the most part of normal guys would do. But I'm not proud of it, I just accept the fate of not being able to win other's heart.

Becoming cold is already happening, I've passed through some situations in which I'd cry like a baby if it were passed just few months ago, and now I just don't cry, nothing hurts inside and it, it does not match my star sign (no that's important, but that's ironical).

Getting rid of family, love and friends. Start all over learning how to be patient and a silent boy would be maybe, the only way of finding peace in this crapy world. The world is already Godless, I'm not into going on its same wave.